Use your power to be kind.
Why do so many of us often experience such an intense hunger for drama and adventure? Could it be that inwardly we are keenly aware of how unstable and insecure the world is? Perhaps this unnerves us so much that we decide the only way to cope is by creating new artificial challenges to take our minds off the existing real ones. It is very important for you to enjoy whatever it is that you are caught up, no matter how tense it may make you feel. And believe it or not, that really is possible! 
Why do we sometimes find it hard to think straight? We relish the idea of leading logical lives yet often we wind up facing unexpected difficulties and diversions. We have little option other than to respond on the spur of the moment. But what spurs us on in one particular moment, may be very different to what might spur us on at some other time, under some other circumstance. You are now making the best decision you can with the best information available to you. Despite your concern, it will yet have the best result. 
Children, as many a frustrated parent has discovered, tend to be much better behaved in the company of strangers than they do in the presence of family members. Husbands and wives are often grouchier to one another than they would ever be with a friend. Familiarity, it sometimes seems, breeds contempt. Yet if someone is close enough to you to show you the true secret of their unhappiness, this can also be interpreted as a gesture of trust. Take heart  from something that you might be tempted to take umbrage at.