MY FIGHT WITH OVARIAN CANCER

The doctor has given me a year to live with cancer because mine is aggressive cancer which has occurred within six months of treatment.
But I do believe in god HE may extend my life. God alone has power. Who rely on their faith or spirituality tend to experience increased hope and optimism.I believe I have full control of my emotions till now. Though pain and the feeling what next...after every test never gone.
I read spiritual books which helped me to decrease my feeling of anxiety, depression, and anger, why god you have given me this big C.
Children have their own life while my husband died after hearing cancer has come back. Now it's six months I am alone, fighting with cancer. My daughter is married. Son got married recently but no one can fill a gap.
Sometimes blood count is low sometimes platelets and red cells are also too low. Spirituality helped me to be more compliant with treatment and live a healthier ifestyle.  Better control of pain, anger or feeling of isolation. I try to adjust to the physical and emotional effects of cancer treatment.
Nobody including doctor knows what to expect from cancer treatment, it is always challenging. I want to know the meaning of my existence,
why why and why this is happening to me?
Sometimes ai try to enjoy whatever left with positive feelings and satisfaction with life and inner peace.

LIVING WITH CANCER

I have known people who will throw it on your face of how kind, generous, charitable they are, how often they meditate and pray, in order to gain self-glorification and also in a way to put the other person down.
Things changed with when you have less time on this earth.
I have cancer,aggressive one and living with it for the last one and half year. My fears how my end will be- painful or peaceful. Now I am living in moment,have known power of now automatically,without any external force.

My life is now enjoying each moment,falling asleep and expect to wake up each day focusing on possibilities- preparing to die but expecting to live. Strange?  But when you wake up,you have to find your place in this world in spite of your pains and sufferings and that's the spirit of a winner!

MAY BE NEXT TIME

IDEAL

One can stand erect only if there is an ideal in life.All life forms struggle for food, shelter, and progeny.  But we have much more to do as a human being. Rarest thing is genuine hummiity,integrity and a true sense of love. Where there is true love there is god.

BEAUTY

GIFTS OF LIFE

Everything is a complete package in life. If someone has some weaknesses, he/she would have good qualities too. If life has some challenges then life would have some gifts too. So if your life has challenges, then it would have good parts too.repeat those things all day and the be grateful for them.
This is your path.The problem is not that there are innumerable roads leading to The One but in reality the mess up is that most people are certain that their pathway is the only true approach to liberation, heaven, God-Goddess-Guru.

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Might it be harder to hide our hidden agendas and our pockets of emotional vulnerability?
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 What if we were to get an unwanted visitor? Out of politeness, we invite them to sit and then, while they are bending our ear, we realise they are getting so uncomfortable that they are clearly planning to leave early.This is because of sofa, which has foam  too thin against the wood below it develop aches and pains from sitting in a contorted shape.We do not like to throw something of  little value sometimes.

HAVING THE RIGHT ANSWERS

You will appreciate that having all the right answers is not, in itself, always enough. You have to make sure that they are attributed to the right questions.Adventure doesn't exclusively offer itself to those who seek the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the new.So right questions have to be set first.

'You see but your shadow when you turn your back to the sun.'

 Imagination is a wonderful thing. It isn't just artists, inventors, designers and writers who are born blessed with this. We've all got plenty. That's how we manage to put up with so much that seems difficult - and how we persuade ourselves that some situations are better than they are! 
Even as adults we often run the risk of drawing people's attention to the very thing that we least want them to notice, simply by trying a little too hard to keep it hidden. All you really need to do with regard to any matter that's worrying you this weekend is relax. Take care of the obvious and the rest will take care of itself. 
 What about your own deepest understandings?We all want to be helpful. We like to be polite and sympathetic. Even if we secretly half fancy the idea of being dark - most of us simply can't help being good at heart.
 'You see but your shadow when you turn your back to the sun.' 

.Adventure doesn't exclusively offer itself to those who seek the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the new. It operates a door-to-door service and administers this in a very fair and thorough way. Sooner or later, it will ring every bell and rattle every knocker. If we hide behind the curtains, pretending to be out. Sooner or later, it will ring every bell and rattle every knocker. If we hide behind the curtains, pretending to be out, it will stick around till it finds a way in. That, all on its own, is one good reason for being proactive in pursuit of drama and change.  At least it ensures some sense of control!

The people we love aren't always the easiest people for us to be with. Strangers tend to demand less from us than close friends and relations. The same can be said about the situations that excite us the most. They may bring us more fulfilment, but they also tend to pose more problems than the scenarios that hardly matter to us.
So you may or may not like  the path you have taken but at least you have inner satisfaction you can see that path in your memory as a solid, obvious route. 
What has to done should be done!

PROTECT SELF ESTEEM

WHAT your relative thinks is important,  By taking the time to listen to and address your relative's criticisms, you are not only being open to new ideas but also showing him that you respect his beliefs. Taking the time to listen and respond may be enough to stop future criticisms. If it's not, you have every right (and the confidence)to ask him to stop.While the focus of this course is on improving self-image through positive thinking, having a more positive attitude can make you open to a world of physical changes. You need to address self to know the cause. An honest and responsible approach can save your reputation and lead to well-earned esteem.

DONT BE ASHAMED TO ACCEPT THAT YOU HAVE TO WORK WITHIN YOUR BUDGET.

 you play a huge part in your happiness, and you can greatly increase it by taking action and changing your attitude toward yourself. You are responsible for yourself. Your happiness (or your misery) depend in a great part upon what you tell yourself, how you treat yourself, and how you interpret your world.

Believe in yourself and believe that you are capable of handling life's problems.

लोग बहुत बड़े दुष्ट हैं।

 लोग बहुत बड़े दुष्ट हैं। तुम उन्हें जहां भी भेजोगे, वे नकारात्मक चीजें ही करेंगे।वे लोग ऐसे नहीं थे जो कुछ परिस्थितियों से बाध्य हो कर गलत काम कर रहे थे। उन्हें कुछ भी दे दो, उन्हें फिर भी गलत काम ही करना था,

दूसरों के लिए कष्टों और परेशानियों का ढेर लगा देंगे और फिर लोगों से कहेंगे- आखिर यहां है क्या। न कोई मरता है, न कोई जन्म लेता है।सबसे उँची. प्रेम सगाई

BUDDIST MONK SAYS

According to Buddhist monk Ringu Tulku Rinpoche, somewhere in the middle of all this action also come emotions like aversion and attachment...leading to destruction of others, and culminating in the destruction of oneself...

Thus, fear becomes the supreme negative emotion...which causes an Apocalypse-like situation in our lives...

Therefore, it becomes absolutely crucial to face, manage and subdue such fear...only whjen we do that, do we allow the good inside us to emerge and taste victory.

Isn't this also what all our scriptures say? Isn't this what our glorious history has proved over and over again? That it's all about victory of good over evil, but in what sense? It's the victory in our minds.

Listen to the Rinpoche tell you how important it is to deal with fear. He says fear is regarded as a time or demon in Buddhist faith - because it is the root cause of all evil...

La Hotel Chengdu in China.

TO LIVE BEFORE WE DIE

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Therefore, the primary challenge for us is to live ‑ to live before we die! While we live, we may contemplate, search and ask for answers, and try to unravel the mystery of life because for thousands of years, things would have gone by without anybody truly getting the answers to the mystery of life. But there are some who have lived meaningfully and that’s what matters. We must not stop living while we seek answers from life. So from today, do a check — are you truly living or are you just lost in unlocking the mystery of life?

THANK GOD

THANK YOU LORD FOR HOLDING ME IN YOUR MASSIVE HANDS I WOULD LIKE TO SIT HEREWHEN CANCER WILL BE GONE

MISCOMMUNICATION

Remember the childhood game of Telephone? Children sat in a circle, and whispered a phrase to the person next to them... the process was repeated until the last kid spoke the words aloud. Invariably their phrase was hilariously different to the initial message. You may have been feeling as if life is one big game of Telephone - but with less amusing consequences! Yet, the experience has had its value. Use what you've learned wisely,As life pulls your can-strings tight... allowing you to communicate to someone you value, with the clarity you've been hoping for. So, once you've sorted the equipment, don't forget to concentrate on the message. Speak from your heart and the changes required for positive, emotional growth won't just be possible - they'll be inevitable. But, there's so much more to your story than your Sun-sign.: Loving someone or knowing that they love you is not a licence to abuse or antagonise them. It's never okay to hurt someone's feelings, just because you suspect that you will be 'safe', even if you do. We all need to learn to show each other more respect, and to treat the people we're closest to with the same degree of deference and civility that we might show to a stranger. 

GOD'S CONSCIOUS

The main cause of stress today is we  are not working in god's conscious.  If we add god's conscious in whatever we are doing,we would never get tired. If we work for divine beloved our life will be filled with love and strength. Base of our life is co-operation,when we deny it we suffer.
Dedicate inwardly all day's activities to god and enjoy peace.
We would be a yogi then, aware and awake in god's conscious. When I learnt I have cancer,all my worries melted away as the time to commune with god has come. Everyone has to face death sooner or later.Then nothing is to regret,everyday  comes with god's grace and I thank god for new day! This awareness and thanksgiving become a natural part of life and it is a kind f worship-remembring god and living in his presence.

THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A REASON

While considering the tales of indifferent relatives and self-serving friends one gets more perplexed to the extent of suspecting the very intention of one’s forefathers in advocating and implementing moral and ethical codes for social living. Was their intention- one is further tempted to ask- a magnificent ploy to keep the ignorant/restless therefore dangerous majority under check so that the devious minority reap all the benefits and prolong their comfortable living to eternity?
Finally, Are the difficulties in old-fashioned religious life far too greater than the ones one may encounter when seeking worldly pleasures?Sometimes, we are just not able to understand things. Something happens and we break our head over it. We try so much to unlock the mystery of life, but the mystery wouldn’t unfold itself. Why did this happen? How did this happen? What made it happen? We contemplate, we think, we discuss and we brainstorm, but we may not able to find an answer.

LESSONS LEARNT

Think of all the lessons that you have had to learn the hard way. Consider the great price that you have had to pay in terms of struggle and sacrifice in your life so far. , just for a moment, on why you have clear, actual experience in areas of life that others can only dream and theorise about. Then allow yourself to feel proud of all that unique experience.The world, it sometimes seems, is full of people who think that they know all the answers.  

Judging superficially from the current activities of people in general and political class in particular, one is extremely tempted to consider the concept, ‘each for himself’ seriously. The general pattern of thinking observed during periodical interactions with friends, colleagues,neibours and some times, total strangers too seem to suggest that selfishness may not be all that bad for one’s survival and well-being.

कुछ बातेंभगवान पर छोड़हल करने के लिए

यदि कोई हमारा अपमान करता है तो पहले उसे समझाने के पूरे प्रयास करना चाहिए। यदि लगातार समझाने के बाद भी व्यक्ति हमारे मान-सम्मान को ठेस पहुंचा रहा है तो उसे उचित जवाब देना चाहिए। ऐसे लोगों को चुप करने के लिए हमें लगातार श्रेष्ठ काम करना चाहिए और उसकी बातों को गलत साबित करना चाहिएI

"On one's own, it is impossible to conquer Maya and leave her behind. There is no means to do it other than through the grace of the saints." 

himachal pradesh

कुछ बातें भगवान पर छोड़हल करने के लिए