The doctor has given me a year to live with cancer because mine is aggressive cancer which has occurred within six months of treatment.But I do believe in god HE may extend my life. God alone has power. Who rely on their faith or spirituality tend to experience increased hope and optimism.I believe I have full control of my emotions till now. Though pain and the feeling what next...after every test never gone.
I read spiritual books which helped me to decrease my feeling of anxiety, depression, and anger, why god you have given me this big C.
Children have their own life while my husband died after hearing cancer has come back. Now it's six months I am alone, fighting with cancer. My daughter is married. Son got married recently but no one can fill a gap.
Sometimes blood count is low sometimes platelets and red cells are also too low. Spirituality helped me to be more compliant with treatment and live a healthier ifestyle. Better control of pain, anger or feeling of isolation. I try to adjust to the physical and emotional effects of cancer treatment.
Nobody including doctor knows what to expect from cancer treatment, it is always challenging. I want to know the meaning of my existence,
why why and why this is happening to me?
Sometimes ai try to enjoy whatever left with positive feelings and satisfaction with life and inner peace.
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