Some options in life are mutually exclusive. 'Choose this and you can forget ever having that' and vice versa. Other factors seem, at first, to require you to make just such a tricky decision, but turn out, on closer investigation, to be not at all mutually exclusive. It's never wise to jump to a hasty conclusion, about anyone or anything,the promise of an ability to negotiate in an area where there is actually much more room for manoeuvre than you currently imagine.Don't dwell on how difficult it might be to achieve this aim. Don't distract yourself with all the reasons why it probably won't be easy. Just dream your dream, allow yourself your hope and make your declaration of intent.

Love is like a mountain,
      hard to climb,
but once you get to the top
   the view is beautiful.................We always want our guarantees to be cast iron. We don't want to place too much weight on a platform that may collapse. We feel that there is strength in certainty - and so there is, up to a point. Beyond that point, though, lies a realm where the unexpected reigns supreme. We must legislate for its existence, even though we know that we are unlikely to stray into it.
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again in the hope that it will bring a different result! Perhaps so, but that's also the definition of optimism. We have to have faith or we really will go crazy. Sometimes we have to keep repeating an exercise and hoping for the best. And sometimes there's no option, other than to shrug your shoulders and give up. That's not something you can do now, and nor should you. 
Focus on your life

 It's no use arguing. You want to insist that you don't give a hoot. Why then, are you so keen to set the record straight? Unless, of course, it transpires that what you actually want is to be seen as someone who doesn't care how they are seen! We have entered, here, a world of complex tautology, but then that's appropriate. For you need to be very careful.Sometimes, the signs are unmistakable. We see our instructions in the psychic equivalent of red neon letters ten feet tall. We know what we have to do - and we are right. Sometimes, though, the signals are subtle. They can be read in one of several ways. We fear that we could easily make a mistake. Yet a quiet, inner voice, now knows precisely what you need and it has a clear idea of how this can be obtained.

Talk is cheap. That's why there is so much of it. Understanding is precious. That's why there is so little. While people always have a lot to say to one another, they are rarely so inclined to listen. They converse, but they do not communicate. They rarely say what they mean or mean what they say.So many things could be so different. So many problems could be solved. So many ambitions could be fulfilled. You can see this potential... and you can sense it with your heart. Why then do you feel so concerned or uncomfortable? Because there have been times in the past when you have been just as close to a pleasing breakthrough yet, most frustratingly, it has failed to materialise. What's different now, though, as you enter a New Year, is that you are in a real position to ensure that the right thing happens.You can pick apart that haystack for weeks and never find the needle. Or you can walk many miles away from it, but encounter, in your travels, someone who owns a powerful magnet. At which point, you can borrow it, go back and withdraw your missing bit of metal. It will take no more time and it will prove far more enjoyable.Halt! Who goes there? Friend or foe?' This, allegedly, is what sentries used to say. The world must have been a different place back then. Were foes really once so honourable that it never occurred to them to lie and say 'friend'? These days, people rarely say what they mean. You are now wrestling with a difficult dilemma. How seriously should you take it? 

Each day, you are seeing a picture more clearly. As more is revealed to you, you realise that you have been making plans and promises on the basis of insufficient information. As fast as you adjust to your new perspective, you make yet another discovery and this obliges you to rethink your latest rethink! Others can criticise you as much as they like for this apparent inconsistency. What else are you supposed to do? You must not ignore the importance of all you are learning about what's happening in your emotional lifeIf you hold a burning torch in your hand, it's not a good idea to dawdle. Either you need to hang it up - or pass it on - or put it out! Potentially, you are in a very powerful position. You have a real advantage. Your sense of urgency, though, is integral to any success you stand to accomplish. It hardly matters what you do - as long as you now do something decisive about a situation in your emotional life. You yearn to take an important course of action. Don't bother thinking too long and hard. Just trust that instinct.Our actions don't always bring us the results we expect. We try hard to achieve or avoid something, only to find that we have accomplished the very opposite of our objective. Sometimes, we can prevent this from happening by thinking more carefully about what we are trying to do. Sometimes, though, we will get this outcome no matter how smart our strategy is. That's not necessarily bad. Right now, in your emotional life, there's a lot of stress. Just when you think that all is hopeless, something will change your perspective.

Birthday of Sri Sri Paramahansa Yogananda If I don't see you, remember I am working for you in some other place. My seeing you all the time will not necessarily help you. You will receive more by meditating deeply and regularly. I am not here only to help you in this life, but in the beyond also.