You only have to try. Pick up one foot... then put it down again. Now pick up the other. It is about that simple. If you are making an effort, you are making progress. If you are feeling defeated, you are defeated. That's how it works. It always works that way really. But there are times when we are keenly aware of it and times when we hardly notice. You need to notice now. You need to make an effort. Give all you've got to something that is worth getting. This is no short-term project. It deserves your commitment after all it is question of your life.