You are currently under pressure. Though this is dampening your appetite (if not for food, then for life) it does not mean that what you have got on your plate is bad. Do whatever is necessary to keep a source of stress at bay and you'll find plenty that's wholesome and surprisingly easy to digest. And if you're wondering how you're supposed to ignore the deadline you're so conscious of or the problem you fear so much... the answer is: breathe, relax, refuse to be rushed.
'I came to the world for the sake of love. Seeing the world, I wept.' Meerabai was one of the greatest poets the world has ever known. She lived in India, long ago, and defied convention by writing songs about spiritual ecstasy. To this day, her words touch others. Which brings us on to the big question for you. What matters more in your life now, elation or explanation? If you sit and think, you'll only grow confused. So don't. Throw yourself into something that you truly love and enjoy.
Fight or flight? Persist or desist? It's hard to know quite what to do about a conflict in your emotional life but it is at least clear that there's not much room for compromise. Usually, when life presents us with no 'middle way', it either matters immensely which course we take - or it makes no difference. Try for a moment, throwing yourself wholeheartedly into either of your two options. How does that feel? If it feels right and positive, think no further. If not, think again. Your heart will yet guide you in what can only be the right direction.