In the dark? Turn the light on. Thirsty? Turn the tap on. Hungry? Raid the fridge. We know all that, but do we have access to the same kind of 'flick-a-switch' solutions when we encounter intense emotional needs, urges and disturbances? Of course, some people drink. Some take drugs. Some retreat into prayer and all of us, no matter what we do, wish we could make the relief come more quickly. You just need to know now that where there is discomfort in your life, the possibility of an improvement is real.
You are good at what you do. But is this because you never let yourself do what you aren't any good at? Or not while anyone is looking, at any rate. You are not proud, but you do take pride in your ability to do a job well. Right now, though, you are beginning to wonder whether you have bitten off more than you can chew. You feel exposed, vulnerable, and conscious of the possibility that you could make a dreadful mistake at any moment. That's great. As long as you remain aware of that danger, you won't put a foot wrong. 
Deep-sea divers. They get this experience: cloud followed by clarity. First, they reach the ocean floor and their weight displaces a large amount of sand. Until it settles, they can't see anything. After a little while, though, they can see everything! There is a reason why we put ourselves through difficult processes. They lead us to rewards that can be attained in no other way. Something seems to be going wrong in your world now. The situation may even get a little worse. Soon, though, it will get a whole lot better.
 Happiness may well sometimes seem elusive but more often than not, we find it closer to us than we ever imagined or expected. Despite your own current concerns about what's happening back in your own backyard, it may well be here that you discover the greatest source of joy now.