You can do something now that, not so long ago, you sorely wanted to do but could not. This is pleasing to know, but perhaps not as useful as it ought to be. Your priorities have since altered. It is as if you may now have a can-opener, but you have since swapped the tin you couldn't open for some frozen food. Maybe, though, you can swap it back, or trade the utensil for space in someone's freezer. In other words, the challenge in your emotional life now is to stop dwelling on life's ironies, and apply some ingenuity. 
 Once you had a feeling, a vague half-dream of a notion about what you might one day achieve in your emotional life. Not so much a clear ambition - more an idea about a role you might play or a way in which you could do something deeply worthwhile. You have already fulfilled some of your amazing potential. There is, though, a lot more that you could do. You'll soon be finding out much more about what it is you have come to learn and accomplish... and how you can really turn your whole life around for the better.  
 There are times when we can't fully rely on our own judgement. We become biased or overly emotionally involved. Our opinions are coloured by our hopes and desires. We see what we want to see, we believe what we want to believe and then we do whatever we have persuaded ourselves to do, regardless of how wise this may be. But you are NOT deceiving yourself at the moment. Your assessment of a particular matter, or of a key individual's true motivation, is accurate.  
Don't be afraid of what's happening. Don't try to understand it, analyse it, get to the root of it or vanquish it with the sheer power of your intelligence. Accept, if only for a moment, the notion that a certain story is unfolding in a natural and necessary way. Go along with the idea. See where it leads you. Decide if you can manage to feel happy about it or not. If you really, truly want to reject the offer that's about to be made to you at an emotional level, you can. Sometimes, we learn to like things that are not entirely good for us. We get into bad habits and then try to justify these with even worse explanations. We develop a perverse taste for a particular kind of pain or problem. And then... well... then things have to happen to at least make us question those tendencies. Life is effectively now inviting you to think again about a way of being and behaving. You seem reluctant to explore a most wonderful option. But you're about to find a way in which you can truly love it.  
The key to success now, involves travelling light. Just as a heavy suitcase soon becomes a problem on a walking holiday - a head full of preconceptions is a disadvantage in a climate where the cosmic invitation is to think on your feet. You need to drop as many of your big, fixed ideas as you can. You need to be free to adapt on the spur of the moment to new developments. Be willing and brave enough to keep an open mind and soon you'll realise just how well equipped for success you naturally are.  
 Do you know someone who knows something? Is there a friend of a friend whose advice you can seek? Might there be a useful connection somewhere in your social network? Whether you know it or not, you are looking for something. As is often the case, that missing resource is nearer than you might think. But before you can find it, you have to stop hunting for it. You have a fixed idea about where it ought to be. No matter how logical this sounds, it is wrong! What you want is not where you think it is. Be open-minded.   
Why do some people only ever hear what they want to hear? Because whenever they do listen properly they soon regret opening their ears. We all prefer to live in dream worlds if we can. Indeed, to some extent we all have no option other than to live in them. For reality is, in fact, very much a matter of individual perception. You are now seeing things as you want to see them. So is someone else! Try to remember, where there's conflict in your emotional life now, that it's not a matter of right/wrong, true/false; it's a matter of mutual respect.