Do you wish your finances were in better shape? Would you like to feel more emotionally secure? There may be moments,  when you start to feel uncomfortable about a set of arrangements. Too much hangs on a precarious factor; an untried plan or an unreliable individual. But you are in too deep. You've really got no choice other than to stick with a set of suspect circumstances and hope for the best. And all that may yet be for the best.
 If you want to lose weight, should you eat less or more? If you want to reduce stress, should you set a greater number of targets or a smaller one? If you want to feel less pressured, should you strive for higher standards or accept lower ones? Feel free to take on as much responsibility as you want. You are entitled to be ambitious and adventurous.
But don't imagine that the way to lead an easier life involves first making your situation more difficult.Sometimes, things can't happen. They ought to be able to. There's no logical reason for their failure. It's just that events seemingly conspire to prohibit certain processes. At such times, we can refuse to be daunted and determine to redouble our efforts or shrug our shoulders and accept that perhaps, this is not the right time. What we should never do, though, is resent an impediment. Either gracefully bow to pressure under the influence  or stride forward with confidence. 
You are waiting for something to happen but you fear it won't happen in a hurry. So you are making plans to help you fill in the time. On the basis that there's no point in proceeding till the circumstances are suitable, you are putting something off. You don't want to seem foolish and you don't want to waste effort. And there is, you figure, a chance that you could be disappointed. But that's really not likely, insists that acting confidently is just sensible (and intelligent) preparation for success. Why dream a sad dream? Why entertain a fearful fantasy? Unless you take some kind of perverse pleasure in giving yourself a hard time, give yourself a nice time instead! And don't let anyone else undermine your effort. Some people like to criticise others. It allows them to feel better about themselves.